She thinks there are nebulae
in the rough of my gutter bones,
some stargazing sanctuary
for lonely outcasts to lay their heads.
I am but a car crash,
spellbound
inside eyelids,
& red inked corrections
on crosshatched skin.
Made up of moans,
the clutching of bedsheets;
I am contemplating
ripping my ribs apart
& proving
I never had a heart at all.
But my moon shy love;
she is determined
to try & wake the dead.
Fallen Into Darkness by SurvivingNights, literature
Literature
Fallen Into Darkness
Fallen Into Darkness
I'm a dark void, my shadow casts its own shadow
And I'm too much of a coward to even try and turn back
I'm so bleak, because I've managed to create a new breed of sorrow
And I'd be a fool to even attempt to move out and into the blinding black
My mere gaze can darken the brightest tomorrow
That must be why I am destined to remain here forever
My life is unaware that death is what I yearn to give into
That's another reason to sever every bond for the better
I vowed to myself that I wouldn't take you down with me
Your kind strength and light is what I can no longer borrow
I am nothing but a doubled-edged sword, it is wha
I want to see her.
I want to touch her.
I want to kiss her.
I want to explore her.
I want to taste her.
I want to love her.
I want to be seen.
I want to be touched.
I want to be kissed.
I want to be explored.
I want to be tasted.
I want to be loved.
...By her.
I want to be ME.
But I can't be ME.
I can't be free.
I can't be honest.
I can't be open.
I can't...
I have to be fake.
I have to be chained.
I have to lie.
I have to hide.
I have to...
But I don't want to.
And you're so fucking brave
Behind that computer screen
So free of the blame
When you can't hear me scream
And don't you pretend
That you can't understand
When you sit up so high
You just extend the fall
You know you never lost at all...
Don't say I'm not sorry
When you can't see my eyes
I was too far gone
To distinguish the lies
Upset turns to rage
And I spite you with this pen
But for now I am broken
And the darks seeped in again
So don't tell me you hate me
From behind that screen
Don't tell me you hate me
When you can't see me scream
Missing is a strange thing
That I never thought applied to me
But now you've left, truly gone
I miss you with a fiery intensity
It burns and burns
It has no end
But when it comes down to it I know we're only friends
Missing is unfair
It creeps up sneakily behind me
And leaps to my side whenever you're not there
To hold my hand silently
I miss the warmth in your eyes
And the smile that plays on your lips
I miss fussing over your jumper, holding your hand and arguing over the colour of the sky
I just miss telling you things like this
There's a cold shiver this morning
Now I realise this is true
Please don't leave me now
Now I'
it wasn't intentional of me
to bare my walls to you.
i should have known you
would start planning how
to take my walls down at once
instead of one brick at a time.
i literally had no strength to
stop you from discovering
the sins i had committed to
see if i could cheat death again.
i am not ready to spill my
secrets at the struck of
midnight as the world continues
to fall apart around us.
it wasn't intentional of me
to breathe for you yet i am.
now i can't get enough of your
achromatic eyes cause you are
the
drug
that
will
eventually
kill
us.